I’ve always loved to write. When I was fourteen my diaries were full of the daily sightings of my English teacher who was the first of my many crushes. He swept into the classroom and swirled his romantic loopy handwriting across the blackboard and I was hooked. He rescued me out of the lowest English class, which I hadn’t noticed or cared I was in, and into what I classified as the ‘brainy’ class. There I sat in fear and trepidation of being noticed, or worse, being asked to read aloud. But inside, my heart was bursting with an unfamiliar feeling of excitement and pride. He had given me hope and a glimpse of who I really was, despite an otherwise dismal high school experience. Years later my community writing teacher expressed a similar sentiment and I drove home with that same excited feeling bubbling up inside of me.
Life has thrown me some pretty daunting challenges and I’ve often wondered why. Why did I miss out on the so called ‘good’ things, the common milestones most people experience. School formals, travel, the white wedding…. Why so many challenges and wrong choices? Then I realised, I’ve been blessed with many other things. My beautiful children for example. God gave me charge of these precious little people for good reason….to help guide them on the right path. Like the intricate veins you see in a leaf held up to the light, many different paths appearing to branch out randomly. All valuable in their own right and inevitably working to reach their full potential.
That’s why life has taken me on so many ‘sub’ journeys. I’ve stumbled from one challenge to the next. Wondered why I was always the one to carry the burdens. Yet whilst those journeys were often tinged with sadness they always led me to hope and that hope led me to understanding. Now I know why hope is necessary. We need HOPE to encourage us along the stream of life, to ride the wild rapids and push us off the edges of the great unknown when we feel scared and alone. Eventually, if we’ve hung onto that beautiful, strong, lifesaving HOPE, we’ll have arrived at UNDERSTANDING. And that’s when we know we’ve been on the right path all along. I HOPE you will join me on my journey….